Getting to Know Our Thinking Pattern

Pay attention to the image below and list some words that might come to your mind triggered by the image or that you are projecting onto the image.

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Done? Remember, try to list some words before scrolling down.

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Most people will probably say words such as busy, bustling life, the future, working people, and so on. Some adjectives would probably be energized, inspiring, or even alive(!).

My guess is that most people will list words that are leaning towards the positive side, but I may be wrong.

How many of you wrote lonely or loneliness?

I did.

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We often think of loneliness as a feeling that comes out when we are alone. A person who lives alone, for example, may be thought of as being lonely because living in such a lone existence. The assumption might perhaps be true, but not always be the case.

An important aspect of loneliness that matters the most is not the low quantity or the zero amount of people we have around us, but the quality we have with those people. Have you ever been in the middle of a crowded union of people in a public place where folks are bustling in and out the building, minding their own business, like the picture above? I have, and in the midst of such environment, I felt it.

A surrounding like the picture above can serve as a trigger, inviting the feeling to slowly resurfacing. How? In my case, the lack of connection I experience to anyone around me in a public place always puzzles me. In a room so crowded where you have to watch your step without bumping into someone or being elbowed by someone, how can I, or anyone, feel so detached? I could disappear in that crowd and no one would notice or care. It seems that the more people in the room, the more unostentatious, hidden, and muted I could become.

Lacking connection or feeling unable to build connection with anyone is the key. Many reasons to explain why a person can lack a feeling of connection to anyone in a crowded environment. It could be a lack of confidence that has prevented a person from striking a conversation, or it could be a lack of warmth and openness from the environment, or both. Either way, something is preventing that person from making a connection.

If we analyze it deeper, sometimes it is a battle in the mind that acts as a barrier. In my case, for example, I felt “less” than the other people in the room. I compared my life to them and focused on what they had that I didn’t have. No wonder it affected my self-esteem, discouraged me, and left me unhappy — it was a perfect thinking formula to trigger loneliness.

Our thinking pattern therefore, is what we need to be paying attention to, which will take a long term practice to master. Onto what road path our thinking is leading us into, is something that we can be mindful of. For more information about learning to control our thinking pattern, I will refer to an article I read today about Struggling with Overthinking, which I find very useful. How to practice controlling overthinking is a topic that perhaps I will touch upon as a separate writing in the future.

The point for now is, every person can learn NOT to be lonely…by getting to know our own mindset and learning to control it.

So, happy learning.

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Day 4: A Story in a Single Image, from the Everyday Inspiration Writing Challenge.

 

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Day 2: Life is about Making a List

Really? Is life truly about making a list? When was the list time you made a list? I normally don’t make a list. List and I are not close friends. I consider list as constricting, limiting. I therefore tend to stay away from making a list, but look at me now.

 

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It’s day 2 of the Finding Everyday Inspiration challenges. Don’t ask how many more days, but I sure hope I can reach the end without any stopping. God knows how I’m not good with discipline. Well, I guess this is a test. Can I make it to the finish line with this challenge? We shall see.

Today’s topic is Make a List. The challenge gave me four lists to choose, and the rebellious side of me is itchy to come out because I don’t like any of them! I’m supposed to pick one between Things I Like, Things I’ve Learned, Things I Wish, and Things I’m Good At.  And here’s my pick: Things I’d Like to Learn.

Good enough! Let’s do this. *cracking knuckles*

1. To let go. 

Growing up in a household where everyone had a tendency to control things and difficulty to let things happened on their own, I inevitably learned the same style of approaching life. Being a quick learner by observing others, unfortunately I adapted to that thinking style and carried it throughout my childhood and adult life. Only perhaps in the last one year I slowly unlearned that way of thinking…in a hard way. What I mean by hard way is by making a lot of mistakes and then learning from those mistakes. I fell way too many times in my life, but luckily I got up, even with bruises and wound that have never healed completely. This is something that I’m still learning to do. I am seeing an improvement, though. After a while, it’s just exhausting to keep falling down. No more.

2. To love myself. 

Another tough one. Also, because throughout childhood I never learned it. Nobody taught me that it was such a necessary one to have. I realize now that this is especially an important skill for women, and therefore it needs to be taught early in life. Young girls need to learn this mindset and concept in order to be able to survive in the world that, let’s admit it, run by men.

3. To love, instead of to have or to own. 

This is about loving other people or a special person. I’d like to know how it feels to love a person without not thinking that I own him or that he is mine. I think it’s an incredible kind of love. I know it exists, it can exist, and it takes a lot of understanding, self-growing, big heart to be able to accomplish it. I intend to learn it. And don’t you think that it’s a lot easier too? That to have a love like that is so much lighter, happier? To love without a wish, a want, and perhaps hope. If hope does exist in that kind of love, it is not to be together, but to be just it. To be able to continue to love, to be able to continue to feel the love in my heart and never lose it. I own the feeling, the love, but not the person.

 

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While writing the list above, I realized that I have another list I’d like to declare. And I title it Things that I’d Like to Do More Often:

  1. To laugh
  2. To see sunrise
  3. To see sunset
  4. To encourage younger people, especially young children, to read more
  5. To work harder to reach my dream
  6. To give more
  7. To have less, including needs, wants, expectations, and even hope. Keep ’em to a minimum, just the basic ones.
  8. To exercise
  9. To be adventurous
  10. To enjoy music and sing along

 

What a wonderful writing exercise as it turns out. But I think I should stop here. The idea of getting comfortable with making list is a bit too scary.

But I hope you get the message. I guess list is okay, if you use it the right way, which is to get to know yourself more.

Have a joyous journey!

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